What does ruca mean in spanish

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5 How to Tame a Wild Tongue

"We're going to have to control your tongue," the dentist says, pulling out all the metal from my mouth. Silver bits plop and tinkle into the basin. My mouth is a motherlode.

The dentist is cleaning out my roots. I get a whiff of the stench when I gasp. "I can't cap that tooth yet, you're still draining," he says. ~

"We're going to have to do something about your tongue," I hear the anger rising in his voice. My tongue keeps pushing out the wads of cotton, pushing back the drills, the long thin needles. "I've never seen anything as strong or as stubborn," he says. And I think, how do you tame a wild tongue, train it to be quiet, how do you bridle and saddle it? How do you make it lie down?

"Who is to say that robbing a people of its language is less violent than war?"

-Ray Gwyn Smith 1

I remember being caught speaking Spanish at recess-that was good for three licks on the knuckles with a sharp ruler. I remember being sent to the corner of the classroom for "talking back" to the Anglo teacher when all I was trying to do was tell her how to pronounce my name. "If you want to be American, speak 'American.' If you don't like it, go back to Mexico where you belong."

"I want you to speak English. Pa' hallar buen trabajo tienes que saber hablar el ingles bien. Que vale toda tu educaci6n si

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todavfa bablas ingles con un 'accent,"' my mother would say, mortified that I spoke English like a Mexican. At Pan American University, I, and all Chicano students were required to take two speech classes. Their purpose: to get rid of our accents.

Attacks on one's form of expression with the intent to cen- sor are a violation of the First Amendment. El Anglo con cara de inocente nos arranc6 la lengua. Wild tongues can't be tamed, they can only be cut out.

Overcoming the Tradition of Silence

Ahogadas, escupimos el oscuro. Peleando con nuestra propia sombra el silencio nos sepulta.

En boca cerrada no entran moscas. "Flies don't enter a closed mouth" is a saying I kept hearing when I was a child. Ser babladora was to be a gossip and a liar, to talk too much. Mucbacbitas bien criadas, well-bred girls don't answer back Es una falta de respeto to talk back to one's mother or father. I remember one of the sins I'd recite to the priest in the confession box the few times I went to confession: talking back to my moth- er, bablar pa' 'trds, repelar. Hocicona, repelona, cbismosa, hav- ing a big mouth, questioning, carrying tales are all signs of being mal criada. In my culture they are all words that are derogatory if applied to women-I've never heard them applied to men.

The first time I heard two women, a Puerto Rican and a Cuban, say the word "nosotras," I was shocked. I had not known the word existed. Chicanas use nosotros whether we're male or female. We are robbed of our female being by the masculine plural. Language is a male discourse.

And our tongues have become dry the wilderness has dried out our tongues and we have forgotten speech.

-Irena Klepfisz2

Even our own people, other Spanish speakers nos quieren poner candados en la boca. They would hold us back with their bag of reglas de academia.

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'4n 'accent,"' my mother would say, ;h like a Mexican. At Pan American students were required to take two e: to get rid of our accents. f expression with the intent to cen- t Amendment. El Anglo con cara de igua. Wild tongues can't be tamed,

f Silence

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ritran moscas. "Flies don't enter a ept hearing when I was a child. Ser ssip and a liar, to talk too much. V"ell-bred girls don't answer back Es : back to one's mother or father. I recite to the priest in the confession :onfession: talking back to my moth- Hocicona, repelona, chismosa, hav- , carrying tales are all signs of being ey are all words that are derogatory !Ver heard them applied to men.

:wo women, a Puerto Rican and a iS," I was shocked. I had not known ise nosotros whether we're male or mr female being by the masculine scourse.

s have become lerness has ngues and en speech. epfisz2

>ther Spanish speakers nos quieren They would hold us back with their

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Oye como ladra: el lenguaje de la frontera

Quien tiene boca se equivoca. -Mexican saying

"Pocbo, cultural traitor, you're speaking the oppressor's lan- guage by speaking English, you're ruining the Spanish language," I have been accused by various Latinos and Latinas. Chicano Spanish is considered by the purist and by most Latinos deficient, a mutilation of Spanish.

But Chicano Spanish is a border tongue which developed naturally. Change, evoluci6n, enriquecimiento de palabras nuevas por invenci6n o adopci6n have created variants of Chicano Spanish, un nuevo lenguaje. Un lenguaje que corre- sponde a un modo de vivir. Chicano Spanish is not incorrect, it is a living language.

For a people who are neither Spanish nor live in a country in which Spanish is the first language; for a people who live in 'a country in which English is the reigning tongue but who are not Anglo; for a people who cannot entirely identify with either stan- dard (formal, Castillian) Spanish nor standard English, what recourse is left to them but to create their own language? A lan- guage which they can connect t~eir identity to, one capable of communicating the realities and values true to themselves-a lan- guage with terms that are neither espaiiol ni ingles, but both. We speak a patois, a forked tongue, a variation of two languages.

Chicano Spanish sprang out of the Chicanos' need to identi- fy ourselves as a distinct people. We needed a language with which we could communicate with ourselves, a secret language. For some of us, language is a homeland closer than the Southwest-for many Chicanos today live in the Midwest and the East. And because we are a complex, heterogeneous people, we speak many languages. Some of the languages we speak are:

1. Standard English 2. Working class and slang English 3. Standard Spanish 4. Standard Mexican Spanish 5. North Mexican Spanish dialect 6. Chicano Spanish (Texas, New Mexico, Arizona and

California have regional variations) 7. Tex-Mex 8. Pacbuco (called cal6)

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~:C My "home" tongues are the languages I speak with my sister and brothers; with my friends. They are the last five listed, with 6 and 7 being closest to my heart. From school, the media and job situations, I've picked up standard and working class English. From Mamagrande Locha and from reading Spanish and Mexican literature, I've picked up Standard Spanish and Standard Mexican Spanish. From los recten llegados, Mexican immigrants, and braceros, I learned the North Mexican dialect. With Mexicans I'll try to speak either Standard Mexican Spanish or the North Mexican dialect. From my parents and Chicanos living. in the Valley, I picked up Chicano Texas Spanish, and I speak it with my mom, younger brother (who married a Mexican and who rarely mixes Spanish with English), aunts and older relatives.

With Chicanas from Nuevo Mexico or Arizona I will speak Chicano Spanish a little, but often they don't understand what I'm saying. With most California Chicanas I speak entirely in English (unless I forget). When I first moved to San Francisco, I'd rattle off something in Spanish, unintentionally embarrassing them. Often it is only with another Chicana tejana that I can talk freely. ~

Words distorted by English are known as anglicisms or pochismos. The pocho is an anglicized Mexican or American of Mexican origin who speaks Spanish with an accent characteristic of North Americans and who distorts and reconstructs the lan- guage according to the influence of English. 3 Tex-Mex, or Spanglish, comes most naturally to me. I may switch back and forth from English to Spanish in the same sentence or in the same word. With my sister and my brother Nunt,: and with Chicano tejano contemporaries I speak in Tex-Mex. ~om kids and people my own age I picked up Pacbuco. 1!:f!'cm~yo (the language of the zoot suiters) is a language of rebel- lion,---both against Standard Spanish and Standard English. It is a secret language. Adults of the culture and outsiders cannot understand it. It is made up of slang words from both English and Spanish. Ruca means girl or woman, vato means guy or dude, chale means no, sim6n means yes, churo is sure, talk is periquiar, pigionear means petting, que gacho means how nerdy, ponte aguila means watch out, death is called la pelona. Through lack of practice and not having others who can speak it, I've lost most of the Pacbuco tongue.

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ie languages I speak with my sister 1. They are the last five listed, with ieart. From school, the media and standard and working class English. from reading Spanish and Mexican dard Spanish and Standard Mexican '!gados, Mexican immigrants, and Mexican dialect. With Mexicans I'll l Mexican Spanish or the North arents and Chicanos living in the xas Spanish, and I speak it with my married a Mexican and who rarely mnts and older relatives. 'JO Mexico or Arizona I will speak often they don't understand what 1rnia Chicanas I speak entirely in 1 I first moved to San Francisco, I'd ish, unintentionally embarrassing >ther Chicana tejana that I can talk

' lish are known as anglicisms or nglicized Mexican or American of anish with an accent characteristic distorts and reconstructs the lan-

luence of English.3 Tex-Mex, or lly to me. I may switch back and ri the same sentence or in the same · brother Nuns: and with Chicano : in Tex-Mex. y own age I picked up Pacbuco. mot suiters) is a language of rebel- anish and Standard English. It is a ~e culture and outsiders cannot slang words from both English and woman, vato means guy or dude, ans yes, cburo is sure, talk is petting, que gacbo means how tch out, death is called la pelona. ot having others who can speak it, ongue.

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Chicano Spanish

Chicanos, after 250 years of Spanish/Anglo colonization have developed significant differences in the Spanish we speak. We col- lapse two adjacent vowels into a single syllable and sometimes shift the stress in certain words such as maiz/maiz, cobete/ cuete. We leave out certain consonants when they appear between vowels: lado/lao, mojado/mojao. Chicanos from South Texas pro- .. · nounced/asj as injue (jue). Chicanos use "archaisms," words that are no longer in the Spanish language, words that have been evolved out. We say semos, truje, baiga, ansina, and naiden. We retain the "archaic"}, as injalar, that derives from an earlier h, (the French balar or the Germanic halon which was lost to standard Spanish in the 16th century), but which is still found in several regional dialects such as the one spoken in South Texas. (Due to geography, Chicanos from the Valley of South Texas were cut off linguistically from other Spanish speakers. We tend to use words that the Spaniards brought over from Medieval Spain. The majori- ty of the Spanish colonizers in Mexico and the Southwest came from Extremadura-Herniin Cortes was one ~of them-and Andalucia. Andalucians pronounce 11 like a y, and their d's tend to be absorbed by adjacent vowels: tirado becomes tirao. They.· ~ "· brought el lenguaje popular, dialectos y regionalismos. 4) ·

Chicanos and other Spanish speakers also shift ll to y and z to s. 5 We leave out initial syllables, saying tar for es tar, toy for estoy, bora for ahora (cubanos and puertorriqueflos also leave out initial letters of some words.) We also leave out the final sylla- ble such as pa for para. The intervocalic y, the ll as in tortilla, ella, botella, gets replaced by tortia or tortiya, ea, botea. We add an additional syllable at the beginning of certain words: atocar for tocar, agastar for gastar. Sometimes we'll say lavaste las vacijas, other times lavates (substituting the ates verb endings for the aste).

We use anglicisms, words borrowed from English: bola from ball, carpeta from carpet, machina de lavar (instead of lavado- ra) from washing machine. Tex-Mex argot, created by adding a Spanish sound at the beginning or end of an English word such as cookiar for cook, watcbar for watch, parkiar for park, and rapiar for rape, is the result of the pressures on Spanish speak- ers to adapt to English.

We don't use the word vosotros/as or its accompanying verb form. We don't say claro (to mean yes), imaginate, or me

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. emociona, unless we pj,cked up Spanish from Latinas, out of a book, or in a classroo~ther Spanish-speaking groups are going through the same, or similar, development in their Spanish/;

Linguistic Terrorism

Deslenguadas. Somos los del espafl.ol deficiente. We are your linguistic nightmare, your linguistic aberration, your linguistic mesttzaje, the subject of your burla. Because we speak with tongues of fire we are culturally crucified. Racially, culturally and linguistically somos huerfanos-we speak an orphan tongue.

Chicanas who grew up speaking Chicano Spanish have inter- nalized the belief that we speak poor Spanish. It is illegitimate, a bastard language. And because we internalize how our language has been used against us by the dominant culture, we use our lan- guage differences against each other.

Chicana feminists often skirt around each other with suspi- cion and hesitation. For the longest time I couldn't figure it out. ThenJtdawned on me. To be close to another Chicana is like lookfug into the mirror. We are afraid of what we'll see there. Pena. Shame. Low estimation of self. In childhood we are told that our language is wrong. Repeated attacks on our native tongue diminish our sense of self. The attacks continue through- out our lives.

Chicanas feel uncomfortable talking in Spanish to Latinas, afraid of their censure. Their language was not outlawed in their countries. They had a whole lifetime of being immersed in their native tongue; generations, centuries in which Spanish was a first language, taught in school, heard on radio and TY, and read in the newspaper.

If a person, Chicana or Latina, has a low estimation of my native tongue, she also has a low estimation of me. Often with mextcanas y latinas we'll speak English as a neutral language. Even among Chicanas we tend to speak English at parties or con- ferences. Yet, at the same time, we're afraid the other will think we're agrtngadas because we don't speak Chicano Spanish. We oppress each other trying to out-Chicano each other, vying to be the "real" Chicanas, to speak like Chicanos. There is no one Chicano language just as there is no one Chicano experience. A

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d up Spanish from Latinas, out of a er Spanish-speaking groups are going ·, development in their Spanish. ~

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los del espafiol deficiente. We are re, your linguistic aberration, your : subject of your burla. Because we f fire we are culturally crucified. linguistically somos huerfanos-we

peaking Chicano Spanish have inter- !ak poor Spanish. It is illegitimate, a .se we internalize how our language 1.e dominant culture, we use our lan- :h other. skirt around each other with suspi- longest time I couldn't figure it out. be close to another Chicana is like are afraid of what we'll see there.

n of self. In childhood we are told . Repeated attacks on our native self. The attacks continue through-

:able talking in Spanish to Latinas, language was not outlawed in their lifetime of being immersed in their centuries in which Spanish was a ol, heard on radio and TY, and read

Latina, has a low estimation of my low estimation of me. Often with

>eak English as a neutral language. J to speak English at parties or con- .e, we're afraid the other will think ! don't speak Chicano Spanish. We mt-Chicano each other, vying to be • like Chicanos. There is no one e is no one Chicano experience. A

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monolingual Chicana whose first language is English or Spanish is just as much a Chicana as one who speaks several variants of Spanish. A Chicana from Michigan or Chicago or Detroit is just as much a Chicana as one from the Southwest. Chicano Spanish is as diverse linguistically as it is regionally.

By the end of this century, Spanish speakers will comprise the biggest minority group in the U.S., a country where students in high schools and colleges are encouraged to take French class- es because French is considered more "cultured." But for a lan- guage to remain alive it must be used. 6 By the end of this centu- ry English, and not Spanish, will be the mother tongue of most Chicanos and Latinos.

So, if you want to really hurt me, talk badly about my lan- guage. Ethnic identity is twin skin to linguistic identity-I am my language. Until I can take pride in my language, I cannot take pride in myself. Until I can accept as legitimate Chicano Texas Spanish, Tex-Mex and all the other languages I speak, I cannot accept the legitimacy of myself. Until I am fre~ to write bilin- gually and to switch codes without having always to translate, while I still have to speak English or Spanish when I would rather speak Spanglish, and as long as I have to accommodate the English speakers rather than having them accommodate me, my tongue will be illegitimate.

I will no longer be made to feel ashamed of existing. I will have my voice: Indian, Spanish, white. I will have my serpent's tongue-my woman's voice, my sexual voice, my poet's voice. I will overcome the tradition of silence.

My fingers move sly against your palm Like women everywhere, we speak in code.

-Melanie Kaye/Kantrowitz7

"Vistas," corridos, y comida: My Native Tongue

In the 1960s, I read my first Chicano novel. It was City of Night by John Rechy, a gay Texan, son of a Scottish father and a Mexican mother. For days I walked around in stunned amaze- ment that a Chicano could write and could get published. When I read I Am joaqufn8 I was surprised to see a bilingual book by

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a Chicano in print. When I saw poetry written in Tex-Mex for the first time, a feeling of pure joy flashed through me. I felt like we really existed as a people. In 1971, when I started teaching High School English to Chicano students, I tried to supplement the required texts with works by Chicanos, only to be reprimanded and forbidden to do so by the principal. He claimed that I was supposed to teach "American" and English literature. At the risk of being fired, I swore my students to secrecy and slipped in Chicano short stories, poems, a play. In graduate school, while working toward a Ph.D., I had to "argue" with one advisor after the other, semester after semester, before I was allowed to make Chicano literature an area of focus.

Even before I read books by Chicanos or Mexicans, it was the Mexican movies I saw at the drive-in-the Thursday night special of $1.00 a carload-that gave me a sense of belonging. "Vamonos a las vistas," my mother would call out and we'd all-grandmother, brothers, sister and cousins-squeeze into the car. We'd wolf down cheese and bologna white bread sand- wiches while watching Pedro Infante in melodramatic tear-jerk- ers like Nosotros los pobres, the first "real" Mexican movie (that was not an imitation of European movies). I remember seeing Cuando los hijos se van and surmising that all Mexican movies played up the love a mother has for her children and what ungrateful sons and daughters suffer when they are not devoted to their mothers. I remember the singing-type "westerns" of Jorge Negrete and Miguel Aceves Mejia. When watching Mexican movies, I felt a sense of homecoming as well as alienation. People who were to amount to something didn't go to Mexican movies, or bailes or tune their radios to bolero, rancherita, and corrido music.

The whole time I was growing up, there was nortefio music sometimes called North Mexican border music, or Tex-Mex music, or Chicano music, or cantina (bar) music. I grew up lis- tening to conjuntos, three- or four-piece bands made up of folk musicians playing guitar, bajo sexto, drums and button accor- dion, which Chicanos had borrowed from the German immi- grants who had come to Central Texas and Mexico to farm and build breweries. In the Rio Grande Valley, Steve Jordan and Little Joe Hernandez were popular, and Flaco Jimenez was the accor- dion king. The rhythms ofTex-Mex music are those of the polka,

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I saw poetry written in Tex-Mex for the :: joy flashed through me. I felt like we In 1971, when I started teaching High

o students, I tried to supplement the : by Chicanos, only to be reprimanded v the principal. He claimed that I was can" and English literature. At the risk iy students to secrecy and slipped in ems, a play. In graduate school, while [had to "argue" with one advisor after :emester, before I was allowed to make of focus.

ooks by Chicanos or Mexicans, it was w at the drive-in-the Thursday night I-that gave me a sense of belonging. my mother would call out and we'd rs, sister and cousins-squeeze into cheese and bologna white bread sand- ::dro Infante in melodramatic tear-jerk- ·es, the first "real" Mexican movie (that luropean movies). I remember seeing and surmising that all Mexican movies other has for her children and what iters suffer when they are not devoted ember the singing-type "westerns" of Aceves Mejia. When watching Mexican f homecoming as well as alienation. Lint to something didn't go to Mexican their radios to bolero, rancherita, and

•growing up, there was nortefio music Mexican border music, or Tex-Mex or cantina (bar) music. I grew up lis-

:- or four-piece bands made up of folk bajo sexto, drums and button accor- td borrowed from the German immi- Central Texas and Mexico to farm and o Grande Valley, Steve Jordan and Llttle ilar, and Flaco Jimenez was the accor- f Tex-Mex music are those of the polka,

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also adapted from the Germans, who in turn had borrowed the polka from the Czechs and Bohemians.

I remember the hot, sultry evenings when corridos-songs of love and death on the Texas-Mexican borderlands-reverberat- ed out of cheap amplifiers from the local cantinas and wafted in through my bedroom window.

Corridos first became widely used along the South Texas/ Mexican border during the early conflict between Chicanos and Anglos. The corridos are usually about Mexican heroes who do valiant deeds against the Anglo oppressors. Pancho Villa's song, "La cucaracha,'' is the most famous one. Corridos of John E Kennedy and his death are still very popular in the Valley. Older Chicanos remember Lydia Mendoza, one of the great border corrido singers who was called la Gloria de Tejas. Her "El tango negro," sung during the Great Depression, made her a singer of the people. The everpresent corridos narrated one hundred · years of border history, bringing news of events as well as enter- taining. These folk musicians and folk songs are our chief cultural ; mythmakers, and they made our hard lives seem bearable.

I grew up feeling ambivalent about our ~music. Country- western and rock-and-roll had more status. In the 50s and 60s, for the slightly educated and agringado Chicanos, there existed a sense of shame at being caught listening to our music. Yet I couldn't stop my feet from thumping to the music, could not stop humming the words, nor hide from myself the exhilaration I felt when I heard it.

There are more subtle ways that we internalize identifica- tion, especially in the forms of images and emotions. For me food and certain smells are tied to my identity, to my homeland. Woodsmoke curling up to an immense blue sky; woodsmoke per- fuming my grandmother's clothes, her skin. The stench of cow manure and the yellow patches on the ground; the crack of a .22 rifle and the reek of cordite. Homemade white cheese sizzling in a pan, melting inside a folded tortilla. My sister Hilda's hot, spicy menudo, cbile colorado making it deep red, pieces of panza and hominy floating on top. My brother Carita barbecuing/ajitas in the backyard. Even now and 3,000 miles away, I can see my mother spicing the ground beef, pork and venison with chile. My mouth salivates at the thought of the hot steaming tamales I would be eating if I were home.

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Si le preguntas a mi mama, "~Que eres?"

"Identity is the essential core of who we are as individuals, the conscious experience of the self inside."

-Kaufman9

Nosotros los Chicanos straddle the borderlands. On one side of us, we are constantly exposed to the Spanish of the Mexicans, on the other side we hear the Anglos' incessant clamoring so that we forget our language. Among ourselves we don't say nosotros los americanos, o nosotros los espaiioles, o nosotros los his- panos. We say nosotros los mexicanos (by mexicanos we do not mean citizens of Mexico; we do not mean a national identity, but a racial one). We distinguish between mexicanos del otro lado and mexicanos de este lado. Deep in our hearts we believe that being Mexican has nothing to do with which country one lives in. Being Mexican is a state of soul-not one of mind, not one of citizenship. Neither eagle nor serpent, but both. And like the ocean, neither animal respects borders.

Dime con quien andas y te dire quien eres. (Tell me who your friends are and I'll tell you who you are.)

-Mexican saying

Si le preguntas a mi mama, "iQue eres?" te dira, "Soy mexicana." My brothers and sister say the same. I sometimes will answer "soy mexicana" and at others will say "soy Chicana" o "soy tejana." But I identified as "Raza" before I ever identified as "mexicana" or "Chicana."

As a culture, we call ourselves Spanish when referring to ourselves as a linguistic group and when copping out. It is then that we forget our predominant Indian genes. We are 70 to 80% Indian. 1 O We call ourselves Hispanic 11 or Spanish-American or Latin American or Latin when linking ourselves to other Spanish- speaking peoples of the Western hemisphere and when copping out. We call ourselves Mexican-American 12 to signify we are nei- ther Mexican nor American, but more the noun "American" than the adjective "Mexican" (and when copping out).

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"1Que eres?"

essential core of who duals, the conscious ie self inside." 19

tddle the borderlands. On one side ed to the Spanish of the Mexicans, \.nglos' incessant clamoring so that tg ourselves we don't say nosotros 'os espanoles, o nosotros los his- ·xicanos (by mexicanos we do not o not mean a national identity, but )etween mexicanos de/ otro /ado )eep in our hearts we believe that do with which country one lives soul-not one of mind, not one of r serpent, but both. And like the : borders.

i andas y te dire quien eres. ur friends are and I'll tell you who

saying

iama, '~·Que eres?" te dira, "Soy sister say the same. I sometimes d at others will say "soy Chicana" as "Raza" before I ever identified

selves Spanish when referring to and when copping out. It is then Lt Indian genes. We are 70 to 80% is panic 11 or Spanish-American or inking ourselves to other Spanish- rn hemisphere and when copping t-American 12 to signify we are nei- lt more the noun "American" than hen copping out).

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Chicanos and other people of color suffer economically for

not acculturating. This voluntary (yet forced) alienation makes

for psychological conflict, a kind of dual identity-we don't iden-

tify with the Anglo-American cultural values and we don't totally

identify with the Mexican cultural values. We are a synergy of

two cultures with various degrees of Mexicanness or Angloness.

I have so internalized the borderland conflict that sometimes I

feel like one cancels out the other and we are zero, nothing, no

one. A veces no soy nada ni nadie. Pero hasta cuando no lo soy,

lo soy. When not copping out, when we know we are more than

nothing, we call ourselves Mexican, referring to race and ances-

try; mestizo when affirming both our Indian and Spanish (but we

hardly ever own our Black ancestry); Chicano when referring to

a politically aware people born and/or raised in the U.S.; Raza

when referring to Chicanos; tejanos when we are Chicanos from

Texas. Chicanos did not know we were a people until 1965 when

Cesar Chavez and the farmworkers united and I Am Joaquin was

published and la Raza Unida party was formed fh Texas. With that recognition, we became a distinct people. Something

momentous happened to the Chicano soul-we became aware of

our reality and acquired a name and a language (Chicano

Spanish) that reflected that reality. Now that we had a name,

some of the fragmented pieces began to fall together-who we

were, what we were, how we had evolved. We began to get

glimpses of what we might eventually become.

Yet the struggle of identities continues, the struggle of bor-

ders is our reality still. One day the inner struggle will cease and

a true integration take place. In the meantime, tenemos que hac-

erla lucha. lQuien esta protegiendo los ranchos de mi gente?

lQuien esta tratando de cerrar la fisura entre la tndia y el

blanco en nuestra sangre? El Chicano, si, el Chicano que anda

como un ladr6n en su propia casa.

Los Chicanos, how patient we seem, how very patient.

There is the quiet of the Indian about us.13 We know how to sur-

vive. When other races have given up their tongue, we've kept

ours. We know what it is to live under the hammer blow of the

dominant norteamericano culture. But more than we count the

blows, we count the days the weeks the years the centuries the

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eons until the white laws and commerce and customs will rot in

the deserts they've created, lie bleached. Humildes yet proud,

qutetos yet wild, nosotros los mextcanos-Chicanos will walk by

the crumbling ashes as we go about our business. Stubborn, per-

severing, impenetrable as stone, yet possessing a malleability that

renders us unbreakable, we, the mestizas and mestizos, will

remain.